Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Small Note

Sorry for not being on for a while.
I can promise you all a post on how dependent society is on internet once I get back.
No promises I'll have internet access for a long period of time. I have a nor'easter coming up. I just went through Hurricane Sandy, and it's my 9th day without power. The nor'easter Athena that's coming up probably won't help any...
Probably won't have power or internet at my house for a long time.
Yes, that means I'm posting this during school. First period, to be exact.
I promise you all a nice, long post on my realizations, especially those on internet, that I have come to during this period of time without internet.

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who are YOU?

Monday, August 27, 2012

The Catcher in the Rye

Okay so I have this book I you'v heard of it.honors English. Odds are you'v heard of it. The Catcher in the Rye by J.D Salinger. I got it at the start of summer and I have to read it and write an essay on it by September 5th. Well, I'm almost done with it.

Fact is, I've heard nothing but bad things about this book. I don't know if it's because I'm a nerd or what, but it's not that bad. All you have to do is get past how repetitive Holden is. But I may just like it because he calls everyone a phony and I had a conversation with someone the other day about how fake the world is. Me and this girl were chatting up like crazy about our viewpoints on love, life and people in general. Fact is, we've both been emotionally abused and we just seemed to connect. She's the kind of person I'd like to know IRL, but really I don't like talking to people IRL. [IRL is In Real Life for those that don't know.] She's someone I wouldn't mind talking to. If, that is, I do a good job at not angering her. Wouldn't want her wanting my head on a stake or anything.

Anyway, after this conversation I found that I was more interested in reading the book. Holden's negative viewpoints and him calling everyone a phony really is true. But I also happen to think that Holden himself is a phony. Part of me just says he's as bad as everyone else. He talks about people thinking they're good at things when they're not, and then he goes and talks about how good he is at something. I'm willing to bet he's really bad at it.

Now I have to decide what to write my essay on. I'd like to do the topic on turning the book into a movie, but the book has so many of Holden's own personal thoughts rather than actual actions and words, and he talks about things so the movie wouldn't be in chronological order, that it'd make the worst movie ever. It'd be worse than when they turned Percy Jackson and the Olympians or Twilight into a movie! Some books are better as books rather than movies.

Anyway, that's all. If you've read the book I'd love to hear your opinion on it. And sorry for not posting anything all summer long. I've been addicted to Quizazz. Erm, Quotev, I guess, as it's now called. I still am and hopefully it'll calm down when school starts. Send me a message if you have an account. Or email me at Hetalia.Texas@hotmail.com
It's typically just for the website I own, but I use it for other things as well.

-Melody
     -This is Me
          -Who Are You?

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Sisters

Okay, so I know I usually try to post one post a day when I remember to post, but I really need to vent.

This is how the past three days have been going:

Day 1:
~I get my youngest sister(Sister A) to listen to my story. She loves it and hasn't even finished it(It's a rather long one-shot). She was crying before it was over, actually. My other younger sister(Sister B) shows no sign of anger.
~After dinner they hang out as usual. Then my younger sisters come into the room and stop talking. I have my headphones in, but no music is playing. Sister B starts talking bad about me to sister A when I'm right there!
~I go to bed without commenting.

Day 2:
~Sister B is grumpy as usual.
~After dinner they come into my room(as I share it with sister B) and start talking bad about me again. This time I do not have headphones in.
~I prepare for bed. Sister B is still talking bad about me, so I snap. It goes like this:
Me: What word out of your mouth these past two days has been positive.
Sister B: Your hair looks nice. There, I said something nice.
Me: Doesn't count.
~Sister B then starts getting mad at Sister A for wanting to hear my story. I, still mad at Sister B, say "Don't worry [Sister A], [Sister B] is the jealous type." Sister B's response? "Now who is being rude?"
~I point out that I've only said one rude thing to her. Her comment? "Just shut up."
~I go to bed after texting a furious email to my friend and wishing that I cussed. If I was willing to cuss her ears would be ringing with nothing but cuss words. She seriously needs to get cussed out.

Day 3(Today):
~I tell what happened to my best friend in 8th period. She says I should've gone up and slapped Sister B. I point out that Sister B would have clawed my eyes out. Knowing her, she probably would have.

-Melody
     -This Is Me
          -Who Are You?

The Problem With Girls in My School

Okay, so my friend and I were in the weight room during gym. I was on the bicycle and she was on the walking thing we usually do. Some other freshman from another class are taking up all other exercise equipment in that small section of the room. Well, my friend and I are both nearing the point of insanity. These girls are talking about whether or not they have ever had sex. They talk about losing virginity like it's an honor. They then start making fun of two other girls(because the two girls are virgins), one of which is in their class. The two girls also happen to sit at my lunch table. They are probably two of the weirdest people, but I still consider them friends.

What really upsets me is that society is at the point where freshmen believe that it is cool to lose your virginity. Then, if you are a virgin, you're worth being made fun of. It's ridiculous. And those girls were talking about it during lunch, too! (Their lunch table is near mine...like, right next to mine, sadly)

-Melody
     -This is Me
          -Who Are You?

Friday, April 27, 2012

Final Moments

That is the title of the first vignette I wrote for my English teacher. I have to write four more by Monday.

Today, April 27, 2012, my bird died. She was fine when I got home, and then I looked over at her and she was on the bottom of her cage. My mom forced some water into her mouth and tried feeding her. I kept blaming myself, thinking "It's because I forgot to get her fresh food and water. It's all my fault." I didn't say it out loud, of course. Even so, my mom kept saying, "You were an excellent mommy. This wasn't your fault."

I kept thinking to myself, "Please, just shut up! I want to blame myself! Then I feel better! Then I can openly say I'm never getting another pet again. If I blamed myself I could go on in life. That's how I went on after George(my 2nd hamster) died.

At the same time I was thinking to myself: "Why can't I be Lana? I'd give anything to be Lana! Let me have a healing touch!" (GONE by Micheal Grant reference) I didn't want her to die. I loved her. I had tried over and over to get her to talk. I loved her so much.

When my mom was holding Alice and I left the room to move her cage to the workout room where the heater was(they believe she caught a cold from the sudden weather change) she let out a sound. She knew I had left and didn't like it. When I came back my mom placed her on a blue washcloth and told me to hold her. I thought of the last bird I held like this. I held her in her final moments as she died. I had cried for her, and I was close to crying for Alice. A few tears actually managed to escape the barrier I set up.

When she died I went to my room to write my vignette. I want to add a poem at the end. A haiku. I'm going to write one for her. She was my baby, and in her final moments she wanted no one more than her mommy.

I love Alice, and my stepdad bought three Lily plants to put around where they buried her. The lily is my favorite flower, and my mom knew it. He picked out three pretty colors that had yet to bloom. They're all going to bloom around my baby. My Alice. I would say she's in a better place, but I'm atheist. I don't believe there's anything after death. I won't until I find proof.

-Melody
     -This is Me
          -Who Are You

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Sigh Syndrome

I think that's what the doctor called it. Sigh Syndrome. I sigh a lot, and someone with it says they yawn a lot, too. I'm gonna be taking meds for it over spring break. Not fun. Especially with what my mom says I'll act like. The doctor says there was nothing wrong with my breathing, and they're examining my blood(ick. I hate blood tests!). I'm supposed to get an X-Ray so they can look at my lung too. I don't know when my mom is gonna schedule it, though.

On the bright side, the days I was absent from school while my mom was trying to schedule me an appointment are excused. Yay! Now I get to chill out the rest of the day. Joy! Because of the days spent absent, I'm already up to Chapter 15 on the fanfiction I am writing for Ouran High School Host Club.

At least it doesn't look like I have asthma. I mean, inhalers would be troublesome.

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who are YOU?

Sisters

Sisters make no sense. I technically have six and a brother(four of the sisters and the brother are half), but I only count my mom's kids. That means I say I only have four sisters and no brothers. I never talk to the other sisters and brother anyway.

Now, my younger sisters are the most confusing part of my life. I can understand the older two well enough. One of the younger ones(the youngest) is mean to me when my stepdad and other younger sister are around. When they aren't around, she's sweet. In fact, she tries to hang out with me, read my stories, and watch anime. And then my other younger sister...

This sister learns that the youngest is hanging out with me and starts texting me, "Tell her I want to play," and "Tell her I'm not going to forgive her if she doesn't play with me," and "Tell her I have a game all set up." I repeatedly tell her, I'm not her messenger and she can tell the youngest herself. She actually straight out told the youngest, "You shouldn't watch anime. It's bad." And the youngest has been watching less anime ever since! And then I'll be watching it with the younger and the other sister will say, "I'll watch it with you later if you come play with me." The youngest goes to play, and they never watch it. It's stupid! And then there was last night...

My youngest sister got me to play Monster High dolls. This is extremely hard to do. I dislike playing dolls. And I have this rule: I'll play sometimes so long as no one else is there. Well, the younger sister disliked this. So, she started texting me, "I feel left out. You should include me." When I told her that she either had to get Jessie to let me leave or deal with it, she said, "Fine. Just let me cry my eyes out. I'm not afraid to let mom know how I feel, though." And then she slipped a note that specifically said for the youngest not to show me. I read the note when the youngest had left the room. It said, "Melody probably hasn't been telling you my feelings, but I need to convey(tell) my feelings. Plz come to my room so I can. But don't tell Melody!" So Jessie told me she was going to talk to the younger and that I needed to stay in her room. I waited a few minutes so I could read the note, then I went in there. After all, it's my room too. The youngest sister was sitting on the bed, comfy as ever, while the younger was under covers not saying a single word! I told the youngest, "I'm leaving. I have no interest in staying here until you decide to tell me you're not gonna make me play Monster High anymore."

And then later that night I walked in and the younger says, "It's none of your business. Butt out." I ask what she meant, and she said it again! And then she started ordering the youngest around like if she was a maid!!! She really picks a nerve with me!

Just tell me your opinion on siblings if you have them.

-Melody
   -This is ME
         -Who are YOU?

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Doctors

Ick. I hate doctors. If anyone reading this is a doctor or is related to a doctor, don't take it personally. It's just, I never really saw one before I needed shots for eighth grade year. And now my mom has scheduled me an appointment to check my asthma.

You see, even if I don't have a serious case of asthma, my mom was told that I had it when I was, like, born or little or something. I don't know. Anyway, it's been hurting me when I take deep breaths and I cough after doing something like laughing or something like that. I've never been active before I started school, so it never bothered me. Now I'm having problems breathing in deep, which will be troublesome for me since I'm in chorus.

Anyway, that's all there is. So, I'm missing two days of school. I was supposed to skip only today, but then the doctor refused to see me. Great, huh? And I have to worry that my science teacher will be upset since I was supposed to stay after today. Her only other day to stay after is tomorrow. I'm supposed to correct my test(the grade isn't that bad or anything.) and I haven't gotten a chance to. All the students except me have corrected them.

Well, I guess you can post your opinion on doctors. My opinion is this: I dislike regular doctors, dentists, and psychiatrists(I'm uncomfortable talking about my feelings), but I love eye doctors(which is good since I have an appointment after school Monday. My eyes have also been bothering me)

I'm falling apart, huh? :P

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who are YOU?

Sunday, February 19, 2012

Lesson Learned

So, I learned the hard way that if you delete comments from the "comment" section of the edit-area-thing on a blog, it deletes them for good. Like, no one can see them. Great, huh? Now my blog has 0 comments when I just thought I'd try to make it easier to see what comments I had. :(

So, lesson learned. And I am SOOOOO sorry to anyone whose comment I accidentally ended up removing. You have my deepest apologies! *bows deep* I'm so sorry!

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who Are YOU?

Monday, February 13, 2012

Valentine's Day

Okay, so I know Valentine's Day is tomorrow, but I really don't think I'll remember to post tomorrow.

So, in my eyes, I hate this day. It's not that important. Yes, people express their love for one another and it's very iconic. However, I hate it. I lived my life homeschooled, so I guess it may be because I'm used to getting my annual box of chocolates from my parents and then doing whatever I want. Last year I didn't get any valentines, so I was okay with it still. I mean, I got one from a girl in my class since she was giving them to all her friends, but that's it. This year, everyone is saying a certain someone will give me something. I am not looking forward to it. I just want to skip school tomorrow... :(  Sadly, I have to make up a science test after school(my teacher must really dislike me...but I have to makeup two geometry quizzes that next day)

Ah, but I am happy for those who enjoy this day. Enjoy it, wear pink and red and white and all that. If I have it my way, I'll wear blue or yellow. Even so, I came up with this hairstyle I like, so I may wear it with my red sweater dress and heart earrings. Fuuuuun.... [Not]

Oh, but I am looking forward to the valentine my friend is gonna give me! She said mine has FunDip! Yay! I love that stuff! So, that's something to look forward to at least. Why not tell me your opinions on this day? I hate it, as you've learned. So, why not tell me what your opinion is? <3

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who are YOU?

Thursday, February 9, 2012

Stress

Okay, so I may be a LITTLE bit over stressed. Okay, a lot. My mom, sensing this, brought me home early from school. I have had pounding headaches since Monday, a stomachache as of last night, and my eyes have been bothering me since Tuesday of last week. Now I'm watching my sister and typing this blog while relaxing. My mom told me I could do anything I want EXCEPT school work. She said I'll be punished if I touch anything having to do with school. I want to look at the curriculum options for my Sophomore year, though. That way I can decide what classes to pick tomorrow when we make our selections.

Other than that, I am thinking of freeing my mind by making AMVs/MMVs, posting old videos on YouTube(they are LONG overdue), editing the Monster High Operetta review my sister did and posting it on YouTube, and designing the Facebook page for my parent's new business. FUN!

*starts to sing the F.U.N song.*

Haha, Spongebob. As luck has it, I only know "F is for friends who do stuff together, U is for you and me. N is for anywhere and anytime at all down here in the deep blue sea!"

Anyway, I guess I should tell you that, if possible, I would love for people to post their ways for dealing with stress. Mine is making lists(I'm using the Vera Bradley journal a friend got me for it. I have 5 lists!) and drawing. The drawing doesn't even have to be of anything, just a line.

See Write to y'all later! [Haha, said y'all like the true Texan I am!]

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who are YOU?

Friday, January 27, 2012

Birthday Presents

Okay, so for my birthday I received the following:
From my friend in 8th period: A really good journal(it's name brand)
From my friend in 8th period that the other one is always fighting with: The first two volumes of Vampire Knight(yay! Fave manga!)
From my parents: A Kimono girl car from Cars 2, a $25 Barnes and Nobles gift card(in exchange for the $25 one my idiot dad sent me), a Nook(the personal touch screen one. It was a birthday/Christmas present), and sushi. I'm supposed to be expecting another, but I don't know what it is(my guess in Final Fantasy XIII-2 pre-ordered)

Okay, so for this assignment list the best present you've ever received! Why? Well...I feel empty if I don't post an assignment...

-Melody
     -This is Me
          -Who Are YOU?

Monday, January 23, 2012

Fifteenth Birthday(and Birthdays in General)

So...I skipped school today. The occasion was my birthday. To think, my birthday ended up being the first school day after midterms. Yuck.

Anyway, now I'm fifteen. Yay! :P

I would have gone to school no problem if it weren't for the fact that it's my birthday. It's bad enough that people knew it was my birthday on Facebook...(that's why I want to delete my profile). My birthday has always been something for my family and me. My sister and I always had joint birthdays(hers was yesterday. She turned 14.) and shared a cake. This year I did nothing, she had a sleep over. We both got our own cakes instead of sharing. It's a sign of how distant we've grown...

Sadly, people on Facebook knew it was my birthday. :( I really don't like my phone exploding with texts from Facebook about people wishing me a Happy Birthday. I really appreciate it and all, but it's kind of annoying. Besides, the reason I skipped school was to AVOID that. *sighs* Oh well...

Oh, I got a guy's phone number. He's just a friend. Everyone else thinks otherwise. They're certain we should be a couple since we both like anime. Not happening. That's about all I've learned we have in common. I'm not going to return his feelings until I learnt that we have more in common! *stomps foot*

Ah, and I get my friend's birthday present tomorrow! Hopefully I'll be able to tell you what I got(not sure since I have to help my sister with her class president speech and I'll be swamped with homework....)

Ah, if it's not too much trouble, could you post your opinions on birthdays? Mine is simple: I don't get why we celebrate them. Of course, I supposedly am getting another birthday present. Wonder what it is! (*crosses fingers* Pre-ordered Final Fantasy XIII-2...not that I'll know till the 31 if so...)

-Melody
     -This is Me
          -Who are You?

Saturday, January 7, 2012

A Random Thought

So, I've been commenting on the blog of someone. I really enjoy talking to this person. And, when I think about it, I found out just something that I've been thinking for a while. It's about a dream I had. (And yes, it includes elements from the anime Bleach)

In the dream, many kids from my school died in bus accidents and bombings, though there is no war here where we live. When I came to, I knew nothing of my previous life. I went to a man for help, surprised to find myself speaking Japanese and English, as if both were known from birth. He offered me to stay the night, and when I woke up I was being pulled off to the Soul Society's Soul Reaper Academy. After a while, I become a skill Soul Reaper alongside many characters I had forgotten about but knew during my time alive, such as Renji Abarai and Hitsugaya Toushiro. One day, while in Rukon district, I found a best friend of mine, a girl on my bus who I hate, and a girl on my bus who announced to everyone on it that I had never had a crush on someone. They could only speak English, but I communicated with them easily enough. They were shocked that I didn't know them, especially since one was so close to me while I was alive and had died of old age. Then, after helping bring back my memory, I came upon a boy who had confessed to me during the first semester of Freshman year. We talked and he helped fill in more blanks. Eventually he asked if I would change anything if I could. I told him no, because who I was when I was alive makes me who I am.


Now, that dream really had an affect on me. And I was especially creeped out all day since I had been having this feeling on the bus the day before I had the dream that something big was going to happen. I have it now, too. I just don't know what it is. And, even though I believe it is childish to think so, when I penny fell out of my pocket two/three times and landed on heads each time, I felt as if it was a sign that whatever is coming won't be all bad for me.

Now, the basic affect of the dream was this: Who we were makes us who we are. We shouldn't want to change that. And, without reading the blog I've been commenting on lately, I wouldn't have clicked to this.

Before I leave you, I would like to make the goal of this post for you to comment and tell me of something you believe in, a time when you felt like something big was going to happen, or just your thoughts on my beliefs(both the something happening and the who we are one).

-Melody
       -This is Me
              -Who Are You?

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

New Year's Resolution

So, I'm not sure if you believe in resolutions, but it's normal for my family to come up with them. Last year's was to get on honor roll. I achieved it. In truth, I also had one that I had forgotten about(and I still forgot) but I remember writing down in my journal that I had finally achieved it, even though I regretted it.

Anyway, this year I chose not to get a resolution. Why? I can't come up with any. If anything, it would be to stop procrastinating or post on this blog more. But I'm not sure I really am able to stick with resolutions. Now, I know this post is short and also late, but I needed to post about it. And the reason it's short? My younger sister is bugging me to get off the computer so she can do it for her homework. So, I guess I have to submit.

Anyway, thanks for reading this short post. As a goal, I would like you to comment and tell me what your New Year's Resolution is for 2012. Why? Because I think it'd  be fun. And I may post one every New Year if it goes well! ^.^

-Melody
     -This is Me
          -Who are You?