Sigh Syndrome

I think that's what the doctor called it. Sigh Syndrome. I sigh a lot, and someone with it says they yawn a lot, too. I'm gonna be taking meds for it over spring break. Not fun. Especially with what my mom says I'll act like. The doctor says there was nothing wrong with my breathing, and they're examining my blood(ick. I hate blood tests!). I'm supposed to get an X-Ray so they can look at my lung too. I don't know when my mom is gonna schedule it, though.

On the bright side, the days I was absent from school while my mom was trying to schedule me an appointment are excused. Yay! Now I get to chill out the rest of the day. Joy! Because of the days spent absent, I'm already up to Chapter 15 on the fanfiction I am writing for Ouran High School Host Club.

At least it doesn't look like I have asthma. I mean, inhalers would be troublesome.

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who are YOU?

Sisters

Sisters make no sense. I technically have six and a brother(four of the sisters and the brother are half), but I only count my mom's kids. That means I say I only have four sisters and no brothers. I never talk to the other sisters and brother anyway.

Now, my younger sisters are the most confusing part of my life. I can understand the older two well enough. One of the younger ones(the youngest) is mean to me when my stepdad and other younger sister are around. When they aren't around, she's sweet. In fact, she tries to hang out with me, read my stories, and watch anime. And then my other younger sister...

This sister learns that the youngest is hanging out with me and starts texting me, "Tell her I want to play," and "Tell her I'm not going to forgive her if she doesn't play with me," and "Tell her I have a game all set up." I repeatedly tell her, I'm not her messenger and she can tell the youngest herself. She actually straight out told the youngest, "You shouldn't watch anime. It's bad." And the youngest has been watching less anime ever since! And then I'll be watching it with the younger and the other sister will say, "I'll watch it with you later if you come play with me." The youngest goes to play, and they never watch it. It's stupid! And then there was last night...

My youngest sister got me to play Monster High dolls. This is extremely hard to do. I dislike playing dolls. And I have this rule: I'll play sometimes so long as no one else is there. Well, the younger sister disliked this. So, she started texting me, "I feel left out. You should include me." When I told her that she either had to get Jessie to let me leave or deal with it, she said, "Fine. Just let me cry my eyes out. I'm not afraid to let mom know how I feel, though." And then she slipped a note that specifically said for the youngest not to show me. I read the note when the youngest had left the room. It said, "Melody probably hasn't been telling you my feelings, but I need to convey(tell) my feelings. Plz come to my room so I can. But don't tell Melody!" So Jessie told me she was going to talk to the younger and that I needed to stay in her room. I waited a few minutes so I could read the note, then I went in there. After all, it's my room too. The youngest sister was sitting on the bed, comfy as ever, while the younger was under covers not saying a single word! I told the youngest, "I'm leaving. I have no interest in staying here until you decide to tell me you're not gonna make me play Monster High anymore."

And then later that night I walked in and the younger says, "It's none of your business. Butt out." I ask what she meant, and she said it again! And then she started ordering the youngest around like if she was a maid!!! She really picks a nerve with me!

Just tell me your opinion on siblings if you have them.

-Melody
   -This is ME
         -Who are YOU?

Doctors

Ick. I hate doctors. If anyone reading this is a doctor or is related to a doctor, don't take it personally. It's just, I never really saw one before I needed shots for eighth grade year. And now my mom has scheduled me an appointment to check my asthma.

You see, even if I don't have a serious case of asthma, my mom was told that I had it when I was, like, born or little or something. I don't know. Anyway, it's been hurting me when I take deep breaths and I cough after doing something like laughing or something like that. I've never been active before I started school, so it never bothered me. Now I'm having problems breathing in deep, which will be troublesome for me since I'm in chorus.

Anyway, that's all there is. So, I'm missing two days of school. I was supposed to skip only today, but then the doctor refused to see me. Great, huh? And I have to worry that my science teacher will be upset since I was supposed to stay after today. Her only other day to stay after is tomorrow. I'm supposed to correct my test(the grade isn't that bad or anything.) and I haven't gotten a chance to. All the students except me have corrected them.

Well, I guess you can post your opinion on doctors. My opinion is this: I dislike regular doctors, dentists, and psychiatrists(I'm uncomfortable talking about my feelings), but I love eye doctors(which is good since I have an appointment after school Monday. My eyes have also been bothering me)

I'm falling apart, huh? :P

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who are YOU?

Lesson Learned

So, I learned the hard way that if you delete comments from the "comment" section of the edit-area-thing on a blog, it deletes them for good. Like, no one can see them. Great, huh? Now my blog has 0 comments when I just thought I'd try to make it easier to see what comments I had. :(

So, lesson learned. And I am SOOOOO sorry to anyone whose comment I accidentally ended up removing. You have my deepest apologies! *bows deep* I'm so sorry!

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who Are YOU?

Valentine's Day

Okay, so I know Valentine's Day is tomorrow, but I really don't think I'll remember to post tomorrow.

So, in my eyes, I hate this day. It's not that important. Yes, people express their love for one another and it's very iconic. However, I hate it. I lived my life homeschooled, so I guess it may be because I'm used to getting my annual box of chocolates from my parents and then doing whatever I want. Last year I didn't get any valentines, so I was okay with it still. I mean, I got one from a girl in my class since she was giving them to all her friends, but that's it. This year, everyone is saying a certain someone will give me something. I am not looking forward to it. I just want to skip school tomorrow... :(  Sadly, I have to make up a science test after school(my teacher must really dislike me...but I have to makeup two geometry quizzes that next day)

Ah, but I am happy for those who enjoy this day. Enjoy it, wear pink and red and white and all that. If I have it my way, I'll wear blue or yellow. Even so, I came up with this hairstyle I like, so I may wear it with my red sweater dress and heart earrings. Fuuuuun.... [Not]

Oh, but I am looking forward to the valentine my friend is gonna give me! She said mine has FunDip! Yay! I love that stuff! So, that's something to look forward to at least. Why not tell me your opinions on this day? I hate it, as you've learned. So, why not tell me what your opinion is? <3

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who are YOU?

Stress

Okay, so I may be a LITTLE bit over stressed. Okay, a lot. My mom, sensing this, brought me home early from school. I have had pounding headaches since Monday, a stomachache as of last night, and my eyes have been bothering me since Tuesday of last week. Now I'm watching my sister and typing this blog while relaxing. My mom told me I could do anything I want EXCEPT school work. She said I'll be punished if I touch anything having to do with school. I want to look at the curriculum options for my Sophomore year, though. That way I can decide what classes to pick tomorrow when we make our selections.

Other than that, I am thinking of freeing my mind by making AMVs/MMVs, posting old videos on YouTube(they are LONG overdue), editing the Monster High Operetta review my sister did and posting it on YouTube, and designing the Facebook page for my parent's new business. FUN!

*starts to sing the F.U.N song.*

Haha, Spongebob. As luck has it, I only know "F is for friends who do stuff together, U is for you and me. N is for anywhere and anytime at all down here in the deep blue sea!"

Anyway, I guess I should tell you that, if possible, I would love for people to post their ways for dealing with stress. Mine is making lists(I'm using the Vera Bradley journal a friend got me for it. I have 5 lists!) and drawing. The drawing doesn't even have to be of anything, just a line.

See Write to y'all later! [Haha, said y'all like the true Texan I am!]

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who are YOU?

Birthday Presents

Okay, so for my birthday I received the following:
From my friend in 8th period: A really good journal(it's name brand)
From my friend in 8th period that the other one is always fighting with: The first two volumes of Vampire Knight(yay! Fave manga!)
From my parents: A Kimono girl car from Cars 2, a $25 Barnes and Nobles gift card(in exchange for the $25 one my idiot dad sent me), a Nook(the personal touch screen one. It was a birthday/Christmas present), and sushi. I'm supposed to be expecting another, but I don't know what it is(my guess in Final Fantasy XIII-2 pre-ordered)

Okay, so for this assignment list the best present you've ever received! Why? Well...I feel empty if I don't post an assignment...

-Melody
     -This is Me
          -Who Are YOU?

Fifteenth Birthday(and Birthdays in General)

So...I skipped school today. The occasion was my birthday. To think, my birthday ended up being the first school day after midterms. Yuck.

Anyway, now I'm fifteen. Yay! :P

I would have gone to school no problem if it weren't for the fact that it's my birthday. It's bad enough that people knew it was my birthday on Facebook...(that's why I want to delete my profile). My birthday has always been something for my family and me. My sister and I always had joint birthdays(hers was yesterday. She turned 14.) and shared a cake. This year I did nothing, she had a sleep over. We both got our own cakes instead of sharing. It's a sign of how distant we've grown...

Sadly, people on Facebook knew it was my birthday. :( I really don't like my phone exploding with texts from Facebook about people wishing me a Happy Birthday. I really appreciate it and all, but it's kind of annoying. Besides, the reason I skipped school was to AVOID that. *sighs* Oh well...

Oh, I got a guy's phone number. He's just a friend. Everyone else thinks otherwise. They're certain we should be a couple since we both like anime. Not happening. That's about all I've learned we have in common. I'm not going to return his feelings until I learnt that we have more in common! *stomps foot*

Ah, and I get my friend's birthday present tomorrow! Hopefully I'll be able to tell you what I got(not sure since I have to help my sister with her class president speech and I'll be swamped with homework....)

Ah, if it's not too much trouble, could you post your opinions on birthdays? Mine is simple: I don't get why we celebrate them. Of course, I supposedly am getting another birthday present. Wonder what it is! (*crosses fingers* Pre-ordered Final Fantasy XIII-2...not that I'll know till the 31 if so...)

-Melody
     -This is Me
          -Who are You?

A Random Thought

So, I've been commenting on the blog of someone. I really enjoy talking to this person. And, when I think about it, I found out just something that I've been thinking for a while. It's about a dream I had. (And yes, it includes elements from the anime Bleach)

In the dream, many kids from my school died in bus accidents and bombings, though there is no war here where we live. When I came to, I knew nothing of my previous life. I went to a man for help, surprised to find myself speaking Japanese and English, as if both were known from birth. He offered me to stay the night, and when I woke up I was being pulled off to the Soul Society's Soul Reaper Academy. After a while, I become a skill Soul Reaper alongside many characters I had forgotten about but knew during my time alive, such as Renji Abarai and Hitsugaya Toushiro. One day, while in Rukon district, I found a best friend of mine, a girl on my bus who I hate, and a girl on my bus who announced to everyone on it that I had never had a crush on someone. They could only speak English, but I communicated with them easily enough. They were shocked that I didn't know them, especially since one was so close to me while I was alive and had died of old age. Then, after helping bring back my memory, I came upon a boy who had confessed to me during the first semester of Freshman year. We talked and he helped fill in more blanks. Eventually he asked if I would change anything if I could. I told him no, because who I was when I was alive makes me who I am.


Now, that dream really had an affect on me. And I was especially creeped out all day since I had been having this feeling on the bus the day before I had the dream that something big was going to happen. I have it now, too. I just don't know what it is. And, even though I believe it is childish to think so, when I penny fell out of my pocket two/three times and landed on heads each time, I felt as if it was a sign that whatever is coming won't be all bad for me.

Now, the basic affect of the dream was this: Who we were makes us who we are. We shouldn't want to change that. And, without reading the blog I've been commenting on lately, I wouldn't have clicked to this.

Before I leave you, I would like to make the goal of this post for you to comment and tell me of something you believe in, a time when you felt like something big was going to happen, or just your thoughts on my beliefs(both the something happening and the who we are one).

-Melody
       -This is Me
              -Who Are You?

New Year's Resolution

So, I'm not sure if you believe in resolutions, but it's normal for my family to come up with them. Last year's was to get on honor roll. I achieved it. In truth, I also had one that I had forgotten about(and I still forgot) but I remember writing down in my journal that I had finally achieved it, even though I regretted it.

Anyway, this year I chose not to get a resolution. Why? I can't come up with any. If anything, it would be to stop procrastinating or post on this blog more. But I'm not sure I really am able to stick with resolutions. Now, I know this post is short and also late, but I needed to post about it. And the reason it's short? My younger sister is bugging me to get off the computer so she can do it for her homework. So, I guess I have to submit.

Anyway, thanks for reading this short post. As a goal, I would like you to comment and tell me what your New Year's Resolution is for 2012. Why? Because I think it'd  be fun. And I may post one every New Year if it goes well! ^.^

-Melody
     -This is Me
          -Who are You?

Christmas Spirit

If you celebrate Christmas, allow me to wish you a Merry Christmas! If not, ignore what I said.

So, today is Christmas Eve. What am I doing during it? I'm sitting on the computer while my parents visit my older sister in the hospital. Even before my sister was in the hospital, my family has been calling me Scrooge. The reason?
Christmas songs have started to annoy me. I hear them nonstop. Especially "All I Want for Christmas is You"! I have officially started hating that song because it won't stop playing! Is it my fault that I get annoyed easily?

Well, I know this is a short post, but I really don't want to be posting when my parents get home(or my sisters get downstairs. :P) so I'll log off. Before I go, though, you can post whatever you want in the box(like your opinion on this post. :P)

So, MERRY CHRISTMAS(if you celebrate it. If not, ignore that)

-Melody
        -This is Me
                  -Who Are You?

Arguments

So, I'm pretty sure I did a post on fighting with friends, but this one is strictly for siblings. This is because of a fight I just had with my younger sister. I'm not saying names or which sister. I am above that. But the fact is, I like to forget about a fight after it happens. My mom believes there should be a "talk" about it. Used to, it would end with us holding hands for a couple minutes(I hated that. My sister's hands always got sweaty, no matter which one). I believe that, in the event of the fight, someone should let those fighting fix it themselves. If htye stay mad, so what. I'm still mad at one of my sisters for refusing to let me on the play station 2 when she wasn't even going to touch it. Talking didn't fix it. It probably won't fix this.

I don't want to express the details of the fight, but it did end up with me hurt(not saying how or what type) and I probably won't forgive her for a while. Even though my mom wants to have a "talk" about it, I don't. I won't be happy and I'll end up crying. It's how my body works. I don't know why. But the problem is: I can't stop my mom from making me explain everything.

What if my sister and I figured "Oh, we can be mad all we want because mom will help patch things up." What about when we grow up and get jobs? If we fight then, our mom won't be there to help. To make it worse, we won't have any experience to help us do it ourselves. I wish people would consider that.

Anyway, please post your view: solve problems for children or let them solve it themselves when they're teenagers/preteens? Optional as always.

Oh, and please note that I probably won't be able to post every night(as you've probably figured). I'll try my best for at least once a week, though. More if possible!

-Melody
     -This is ME
          -Who Are YOU?

Views on Society

I am so sorry that I did not post for an entire week. I meant to, really, but my stepdad was on Call of Duty and I'm not allowed to cause lag. Let's talk about this topic since I don't want you to think I'm just making up excuses.

I was supposed to write a paper on my views on a certain topic. I had a list of topics to choose from, and I was originally going to write about society. I found my views were not enough for a page and a half, so I switched to aging. Yet I want to write my views on society anyway because of the book we are writing it for, Tuesdays with Morrie.

In my eyes, society is very messed up.  I think that it could be better. The government wants to "protect" kids from what is happening out in the world. No, they want to do it overall. So, they allow kids to cuss and yell at their parents, but the most that the adults can do is ground them, take away their cell phone, or remove Call of Duty for a month or two. Why? Because spanking a child is now child abuse. I'm only fourteen, yes. However, I think that spanking should be allowed. Don't think I'm for child abuse, but I know that if I was at risk of a spanking every time I lied or did something bad, I would never do it. Why? Because just the thought of the pain would scare me.

When my mother grew up, she would have liquid soap put into her mouth when she cussed because there wans't bar soap at her house. It was the worst thing ever, I imagine.

My math teacher actually told me that she got slapped the first time she cussed. But she never did it again.

So, why is it that they want to protect children when the child won't learn from the protection? They'll just do bad things again. Yet it's the government's choice. I think it should be the parent's choice, but whatever. It's not my place to speak. I'm just a fourteen-year-old freshman waiting to turn fifteen in January.

For this post's goal, why not give your view on society? I could have gone on for a while longer, but I don't want to annoy you. And remember, it's always optional!

-Melody
        -This is Me
                -Who are You?

Apologies

So, I know I haven't been on and posting for a while. I'm really sorry. I would've posted yesterday if I didn't have company over. However, I did. So, yeah, sorry. I was also going to post on Halloween, but I never got the chance since I had company over then to. I know it sounds like excuses, but it isn't a bunch of them. It's the truth. And I really have been meaning to post again, but the marking period was nearing its end. It ended Wednesday and I had two tests that day.

So, how about I tell you this: I'm posting a post that says it was supposed to be posted on Halloween so that you can see what I wanted to post about that day. Nothing serious. But, yeah, that's that.

So, this post is about apologizing. Why? I think that, if someone apologizes you should believe them and accept it so long as they explain what happened and try their hardest not to let it happen again. That's what I'm going to be doing. But it's going to be hard.

For some reason, people apologize and don't mean it. Other times, they do mean it and the person that they apologize to is too angry to forgive them. I know what it's like. I was so angry at one girl for insulting my friend Alice* and refused to forgive her. She cyberbullied and made fun of Alice's* singing, saying she had no talent. She even had the nerve to do a prank call, though it was horribly done. Well, when she apologized to my Alice,* she accepted it. And even to this day the girl acts like nothing happened, though Alice* and I still hate her. I mean, I personally disagree with Alice's* forgiving her, but it's not my place to put in my opinion. I think the reason I hate her so much is because even though she apologized for insulting Alice's* singing and cyberbullying her, she never apologized to me after posting "Can you say fail?" and "Fail!" on my YouTube cover. I mean, her younger sister even told me that she(the sister) had removed the comment because of how mean it was. I blocked the account, but the girl never apologized for it.

That's why I think that if she had apologized I would have forgiven her, so long as it didn't happen again. But for some reason, she didn't. And she posted rudely twice when I decided to give her a second chance and not block her YouTube account. Needless to say, I removed the comment and blocked her account(I wouldn't have mind the comment so much if it wasn't from someone who claimed it being "constructive critisism" and doing it twice while denying that they did it. I mean, I was okay with it until I learned it was from someone I knew.)

So, that's my view on apologies. I'm not sure if you agree, but please be sure to tell me your opinion and maybe tell me of a time that you apologized and were/weren't forgiven, or that someone apologized to you and you did/didn't forgive them. It's optional, as always.

-Melody
          -This is Me
                    -Who Are You?